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To truly start over, you have to be willing to let go of the past.

To me, that means admitting failure. Admitting I failed at so many things, everything, really, that I wanted to do with my life. But I have realized that until I admit that failure, I will continue to be a failure. I have had countless false starts, time and again, and for whatever reason, so many excuses, I never stuck with these ventures, not enough to make a difference. And so now I am overwhelmed on a daily basis by all of the loose ends, flailing in my face, reminding me of my broken promises to myself.

This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. To admit that I'm not as good as I thought I was. Not as strong, not as creative, not as determined, not as passionate.

But when I get through this, when I go through every last scrap of failed ambition and broken dreams and burn them all, then I can truly be free.

Free to start over, and this time, achieve my dreams.