In the quiet darkness
I do not cry
But wish I would
Release
The words just don’t flow
Now, they sputter
Like there’s air in the engine
The gas line, the gutter.
I wonder if you could ever know me?
I wonder if I really care.
I wonder if it even matters
Cuz I know you will never reach me
The one deep inside
And it’s not that you couldn’t
It’s just that you wouldn’t
That’s just not your thing
I feel like a lowly parrot
Taking sounds I hear
And throwing them back out
Into the world
And it may seem I know what I’m saying
cuz I’ve got the timing down real well
but truly I’m making it up
and I have no ideas
tonight I don’t want to talk to you
because ‘talk’ is not what we do
but really I’m just dying
for you to want to talk to me
My skin’s on fire
Cuz I refuse to accept
The shitty hand I was given
And I will not cash in
If you were here tonight
Maybe we’d play some cards
And that would make me happy
Somehow.
18 months is as long as I’ve ever lasted
and we’re getting there fast
cuz time flies
when you feel like you’re dying
And it may seem I know what I’m saying
cuz I’ve got the timing down real well
but truly I’m making it up
and I have no ideas
My soul is cold
But you used to keep me warm
And the fire outside
Just makes it colder within
And really, tonight
I can’t stand the stupid games
I want you to want more
I want to be an inspiration
Time and time again
I hurt
For all that was
And all that never could be
And all that should be
And all that never will
I want you to inspire me.
Please, put down your guilt
And come together with me
We could inspire each other, I think
If only we tried, if only we cried
And finally let go
