There's a whole lot of people accomplishing a whole lot of good lately. I want to join them, I want to make a difference, do something good and right, and increase the light in the world...but I don't know how. I realize since my last blogpost my life has spun off the rails. It was a cascading avalanche of a year and a few months, and I'm here now, wondering if I should bother to pick up any of the pieces.
A Cherokee Dream Healer once told a story that I was lucky enough to be present to listen to. I don't remember it well enough, but I remember its essence, I believe. He spoke of a man chasing something his entire life. It was always just out of reach. He went here and there, and spent days and years, *almost* catching and defeating this creature. At the very end, defeated, he turned around and realized, the thing he sought was himself. I feel like that now.
If you've ever played with magnets and tried to press two same-poled ends together, you know the feeling I feel. It's like the very thing I am doing to try and reach a goal, is the very thing that is keeping that goal out of reach. But how to stop, how to see, how to turn around? I don't know.
