The majority of today I spent....asleep. This doesn't show much promise for the accomplishing of dreams, but I've been depressed. I think I've been depressed in general for a long time, and I just have bouts of "good days" that make me forget about the lurking issues that have not gone away. The thing is...they don't go away. You have to deal with them, and they just pile up, one upon another until there's this scary issue-demon that makes you want to hide in bed all day.
I wasn't in bed ALL day, just most of it. I did manage to take a shower, do the dishes, take out the garbage, go to the library and fill out an application at UVA (not at all in that order.)
The UVA application was a pain in the ass, really because they have one application packet that you complete to get considered for any and all jobs, then you have to sift through the pages of job descriptions and write which ones you want. Reading the criteria for these things bored me to tears. I wish our society hasn't become this...whatever it is....some strange semblence of real life. Millions of people playing with papers all day, dealing in pseudo-realities. I read a book recently, and unfortunately at the present I forget the author _Woman on the Edge of Time_ it's a good book, I didn't like how it ended, but I loved the future society it envisioned, where humans have returned to a more self-sustaining, responsible way of life. Where people live, and create, and thrive, instead of dissolving into the overwhelming sea of Apathy.
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